Benjamin2003-04-05
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So Weird!
There's a scene in the new diCapp movie Catch me if you Can in which he impersonates a teachers on his first day at a new high school, and that is exactly how I felt today. Regardless of my Offician Substitute Teacher ID and the 6+ years of age seperating me from the students, it was very difficult to convince myself that I wasn't a student again. Walking the halls was especially strange, because I felt like a student again, but somehow 'untouchable'...
The job was dead easy. I just had to sit there and read my book for six hours. However, the pay is lousy, and the work is inconsistant (I was told that I'd be lucky if I worked three days a week). Also, I really hate being an authority figure. I can't stand it. I like teaching people, but I hate being the one who has to enforce the rules, and follow orders. I wasted my day, the City wasted $76, and more to the point about sixty students wasted an hour of their lives, sitting in a room, watching me read my book. I'm sure there's a good reason why they couldn't have said 'Sixth period french class is cancelled today, come back tomorrow.' but I don't know what it is.

I hadn't ever really experienced power dynamics from this side before, and it's very interesting. It has never been more clear that the Authority has power only because that power has been granted... some officious woman (an assistant principle or something) asked me to 'write up' someone... I have no idea how to do that! The few people that realized how little power I had simply walked out of the classroom, (three students) said 'I'll be right back' and were gone, but everyone else happily gave me power over them.
It beats working at K-Mart.
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